Focus and the Labyrinth of the Mind
09:10
Recently, I’ve been getting better at making time for
writing. Because I know if I don’t make time to write, no writing will get
done. I was reminded this in a dream last night in a rather blunt fashion by
Melissa Kiel (randomly, as I’ve only met her once). Dream-Melissa asked me
outright, “I don’t care how much you want to be a writer, how much time do you
put aside for writing?” I felt like a naughty school boy being roused on,
knowing full well he hadn’t done his homework.
But, while I will always think I could do more, I am getting
better. The calendar on which I mark the days I did, or did not spend time
writing is helping. There are only four crosses on it so far for October. (We
won’t talk about June, where there were only seven ticks all month!)
OK. So I’m making the time. I’m also finding that’s only
half the battle. Many practiced writers will probably be thinking that this is
obvious, and, really, I knew it already. But this month, with more regular
writing time, I’m realising that just because you’re sitting down, doesn’t mean
your brain is willing to cooperate. I’ve already written about how distractible I am. And a quick google will tell you myriad ways to stay focused, but I
thought I’d share mine.
For starters, I turn the Wi-Fi and data off on my phone.
It’s a simple thing, and I don’t feel that (admittedly ridiculous) panicky
I’m-cut-off-from-the-world feeling that our dependence on technology has
cultivated. It’s still on; I can still get calls and texts. Emergencies
are covered.
The cousin of that first step (and one I’ve missed accidentally in the past) is to close the web browser completely. If I need to look
up the meaning of a name, or research fabric patterns of the 1970s, fair
enough. But I can too easily get distracted by whatever I was last doing before
I opened my work-in-progress.
Music on or off is a day by day decision. It entirely
depends how ready to flit away my mind is. Because, honestly, I prefer to write to music. It can’t have lyrics. Instrumental only, please. And not too
intrusive. But some days my mind proves it can’t behave and I have to turn the
music off completely.
But, I hear you say, these are all pretty standard.
The one that might not be quite as common is my finger
labyrinth. My mother discovered I have a fascination with labyrinths a while
ago. And, like happens more regularly than is explainable, shortly thereafter
someone at their church happened to be selling the very thing I’ve become
interested in.
(Seriously, I once, on a whim, asked Mum and Dad for an
autoharp for Christmas. A week later someone at their church got up and said
they had one they’d like to sell. I love it! I’ve taught myself a bit, I made
some music with a friend, and it’s been living with another musician friend
while she finishes her album. But I digress.)
When their church was auctioning off various goods and crafts
to raise money, enter stage left: a small wooden finger labyrinth. She knew her
son would like it. She tried to buy it only to be outbid by someone who REALLY
wanted it and the price got very high. The next week, however, the lovely and
skilled man who had made it presented Mum with another one and said, “This is
for Michael.” For payment, Mum made a donation to a school and orphanage in South Africa where members of their church are currently volunteering. Mum was
only wrong in one thing: I don’t like it, I LOVE it!
After all the noise is taken care of (see steps 1-3 above),
I carefully trace the path with my left index finger. I focus on my breathing,
and think about what I’m about to write. What question do I want to answer when
I’m writing? Where do I envision this writing session finishing? The end of the
chapter, or the end of the scene? I take my time. When I reach the middle
there’s a sense of relief, of satisfaction and a sense of direction. I take a
moment to enjoy it, then start my way back out.
By the time I’m done, I’m feeling ready to get into writing.
The beauty of the labyrinth is that there is only one path. I read somewhere
that “You enter a maze to lose yourself, and a labyrinth to find yourself.”
I feel this; like the distractions have gone, and the path ahead is
straightforward. It may twist and turn, I can’t see what’s coming, but I know I
can charge right in. Fingers on keyboard typing my way through it.
You can draw your own, if you’re so inclined, following the
path with your finger or your eyes.
On a brief side-note, you’ll have no idea how blown away I
was when I discovered that there is a public walking labyrinth not 5kms from our
house. When Bryan and I were on a walk along Merri Creek one day, lo and
behold, one of the things I’d been pinning on Pinterest for years. The very
first one I’ve come across in reality. Unfortunately it’s hard to get there at
a time when there aren’t other people, or children playing (which provides its
own joy, just not the personal stillness I look for in a labyrinth), but I love
that it’s there, and I promise myself to make more use of it.
What do you do to clear the mental desk to get ready for working?
2 comments
I really enjoyed reading this Michael. You'll get there you know - determination that's the key.
ReplyDeleteThanks Corinne. I know I've just got to keep plugging away. It's a good thing I enjoy it! (Even if it never leads anywhere...)
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